Sound the Alarm!!

I'm not having my baby yet. Sorry for the fake out.

I AM having some serious anxiety though. We have about ten days til my due date and while everyone else is getting more and more excited for my sassafras of a baby girl to arrive, I'm getting more and more panicked about her intended exit route. And the part where I have another human to worry about for the rest of my life. Tough break. Should have thought about that nine months ago.

So yeah, this is happening.

Luckily, while I pretend its not happening and continue my anti-nesting vendetta, Ty has taken on the role of most excited almost daddy in the whole wide world. He tries to coax her out on a nightly basis, "Hey baby girl, come out and play. I'm way more fun than your mom's stomach."

I am most nervous about all of the uncertainties that may or may not happen in the next two weeks. When things will happen. Will I have to be induced? Emergency C-Section. What about Ty's finals? But I know I'm getting a beautiful little girl out of the deal, plus I already have the most supportive husband who has such confidence in me and especially in our Heavenly Father.

Plus I knew he would be a great dad before I knew I wanted to marry him. When we were dating, he wanted me to meet his niece more than anyone else. And then when I did meet her, it was like I wasn't really there. I was replaced by a 10 month old. I remember feeling a little neglected and thinking, "This is just his niece. His own kids are going to be love smothered."

And now that he's mine, and I'm his and his kids are our kids, that's the only way I want them.

Love smothered.

Belly Pics #8

So we didn't do any pictures for 34 weeks because Ty was out of town so this picture from the shower is the closest we're gonna get to 34 weeks. I actually look tiny in this picture since it's not a profile shot so it's not really that accurate looking anyway. 

{34 Weeks-June 30}

Leading up to 35 weeks, my parents were in town for the 4th and we bought a midsize SUV from them in preparation for our sweet babe. I'm gonna look so fly in all of its silvery blue glory, with the sun roof open, the wind flying through my hair, and one arm behind me trying to find a binkie while keeping my eyes on the road. 

{35 Weeks- July 7. This is late at night. I actually changed out of my pajamas for this picture.}

At 36 weeks, I'm starting to completely panic on a regular basis. In (probably) less than 30 days, I'll be a mom. What?! It seems like not long ago I was hoping/wishing/praying to be pregnant and then I blinked. I eat cold cereal for all three meals more often than I eat real food. And this isn't just a pregnancy thing, it's the way I've been my whole life. Something about that feels like I shouldn't be allowed to be a parent. When my parents left town, I cried like a baby because I won't see them til after I have a baby. When I was little, I thought moms never cried. Clearly I'm on a mission to prove myself wrong. As panicked as I am, I know I'll be fine. I've got the best husband in the world and if Snookie can do it, I've probably already got a leg up on this whole motherhood biz. 

{36 Weeks- July 14}

As for the actual child inside of me, everything is going fine with her. She's getting bigger. I know this because her little feet have become painful at times and sometimes it feels like she's burrowing an escape route through my bellybutton. Who knew a 5 lb bundle of joy could be so violent? And surprise, surprise, I'm measuring small which means Baby G is small or I don't have enough amniotic fluid. Judging from family history though, it's probably the first but they'll start checking me next week to verify. The doctor told me I'm probably going to have a 6-6.5 lb baby and I'm pretty dang alright with that. I just can't imagine some 10 pounder making it's way out of me. No way. 

Baby Showers!!

I have been so lucky the last two weekends to be "showered" by some of my family and friends. Two weekends ago, my friend Ali threw me a shower. Ali and I have been friends for over 4 years now. We met in one of our math classes and terrorized every single math professor after that with our dual presence in their classrooms and our incessant questions. 

Ali had a cute "Ready to Pop" theme for my shower so everything had something to do with "popping". I got tons of pictures of the food and decorations but only thought of taking pictures of actual humans until after the shower so I only got pictures with Ali and Natalie. 

{The whole room}

{The super cute "Ready to Pop" banner}

{Poppyseed Muffins}

{Cute waters with balloon labels}

{Popsicles}

{Favors}

{The hostess with the mostess, Ali}

{Me and Natalie, another lovely Math friend.}

{Peyton and Jackson testing out my new Boppy.}

This last weekend, my mumzy threw a shower for me with all of her sisters and my cousins. I had the opposite problem at this shower and took pictures of all of the people there but didn't take any pictures of the decorations or food. Oh well. You can't win them all. 

{Me and the handsome man}

{Mom, me, and Grandma}

{Me and the Aunties. Mom, Cherie, Me, Leslie, Jamilee, Grandma, Bonnie and  Emy}

{All the girl cousins minus my sister, Jessica, and cousin, Ally. T: Miki, Lauran, Me, Brittan, Kierstan,  and Emma. B:Anna, Katie and Jillian.}

They were both fun showers and this girl and mama were spoiled. Let's just say Baby Gardner will not go naked or ever be cold for the first 9 months of her life. Thanks to everyone who came and made both of these days so special.